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Hello Friends!

Sorry I’ve been kinda absent this last week. The death of a really good friend from back in high school caught everyone off guard on Monday, and if people’s Facebook statuses/messages/phone calls have been any indication, it would appear that our whole little private school/Lutheran church community from back then is taking it pretty hard. But how could you not? I mean, it hurts me to know that he was hurting enough to take is own life, so I can’t imagine how his family and friends he was still really close with feel. And obviously it’s always hard when you lose a friend or a loved one, no matter what the cause, but it seems like suicide leaves a whole hell of a lot of “what if” questions just hanging out there. At this point dwelling on those “what if’s” doesn’t do anyone any good, but it’s kind of hard not to. I’ve been thinking a lot about them, his ex girl friend from back in high school (whom I’m still friends with) has been really thinking about them as well. We talked for a while on Tuesday about it and both of us were basically at a loss as to what to say. But I’m sure his family is probably thinking even more about the “what if’s”

Oh man, it’s just rough. I mean, life in general kinda is but it’s always worse when you lose someone you care about.

So I guess I just wanted to take a quick moment to say that depression and mental health in general is something that definitely needs to be talked about more so that maybe one day we’ll be able to get rid of some of the stigma around it. In our culture and society it can be really hard to talk about this kind of stuff and reach out to other people when you need help, especially for men I think. So lets get a conversation started about this! Talk to the people you love and care about. Tell them how awesome they are and how much they mean to you. Let them know that you’re always there for them. And I’m sure that wont helpΒ every singleΒ situation. But who knows, you might just help someone who needed it the most and you would have never known about it otherwise.

And on that note, please please please never hesitate to reach out to someone. I don’t suffer from depression but I still know and understand how hard it can be to ask for help. If I’ve learned anything from my friend’s death it’s that people care. The outpouring of condolences, love, support, and acts kindness I witnessed his family receive is just incredible. Hell, I even received some of that love and support because people knew we had been close back in the day. People really do care. So if you ever need help or just need to talk, reach out to your family, friends, coworkers, running buddy, teacher, priest/pastor/rabbi, your “internet friends”,Β  or even just the s prevention hotline, whoever. People care. You are not alone.

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Oh man, that’s some heavy stuff. Lets take a second to look at some cute puppy pictures for a second. Cute puppy pictures always make me feel a little better. πŸ˜‰

You know what, lets do some other cute animal pictures too. Why not? πŸ™‚

Hopefully that brought everyone back up a little bit. At the very least I managed to cheer myself up a bit, so at least there’s that. πŸ™‚

I suppose that’s all I really wanted to say for today. That and that I’ll be back to my usual blogging shenanigans; talking about my life, pets, running, just how badly I”m freaking out about my 3rd half marathon next month, how I feel about missing what should have been my first “official” 10k that took place yesterday, and all sorts of other randomness that hopefully you’ve all come to know and love. πŸ˜‰ I also desperately need to get caught up with all of the blogs and people I follow! I’ve been pretty terrible about that lately…

But anyways, I hope you have a wonderful Sunday, are enjoying racing season and whatever training/racing that’s in your immediate future. πŸ™‚

Remember that people care. I care. You are not alone.

~Ashley

 

 

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Things I’ve Thought While Running

Yesterday Luke and I were talking about my half marathon training, weird encounters I’ve had with people/animals/terrifying drivers, and just all things running in general. I ended up making him laugh pretty hard about some of the things I’ve thought/said to myself while on the run, and once he calmed down a bit he told me I need to start writing this stuff down and sharing these thoughts with you guys, because some of this stuff is super funny! As it just so happens, I have actually written a bunch of this stuff down! I was just never sure that anyone would find it as amusing and entertaining as I do. Especially without any context (although some of these thoughts will have a little bit of context because they wouldn’t make any sense otherwise). But Luke sure did, so at his insistence, here is a sample of some of the things I’ve thought while running. πŸ™‚

(Just a side note; Luke’s not a runner himself and I don’t think he particular finds the subject very interesting to discuss. But he humors me by talking to me about it. The same way I humor him by talking to him about his softball stuff. I swear that is the key to a happy, healthy relationship. πŸ˜‰ )

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  • *Sees a guy loading a Ford Falcon onto a trailer and stops to admire the car* “Dude, sweet car!!! I wonder if he’s noticed me standing here. He probably thinks I’m a creeper…I should probably continue on my way now.”
  • “Fuck this hill and whoever decided to build a road on it!”
  • “Is it weird that I enjoy running through the really old, slightly creepy town cemetery? Probably.”
  • “Headbanging and running do not mix.”
  • “This guy is giving off some hardcore creeper vibes. Better smile and say hi to him.”
  • *Getting slightly nervous because it’s getting super dark even though I’m almost done with my run and close to home* *Sees a nice looking couple out for a walk* “That man is definitely carryingΒ at least one loaded firearm on him right now. There’s no way he’s not. Now I know who to go find if shady shit goes down.”
  • *Smiles and waves at every police officer I see* “I feel like it’s good to be on friendly terms with the cops in town. Even if they don’tΒ actually know me, they’ll probably recognize me as the friendly neighborhood runner if I ever need them.”
  • “Was that a fellow runner?! It had to be! Only a runner would wear shorts that bright and obnoxiously colored.”
  • “My bright teal shoes definitely match with my even brighter orange shorts. I am so good at matching colors.”
  • “Cows!!!!”
  • “I wounder if the farmer knows I run down here just to look at his cows.”
  • “I don’t like the way that cow is looking at me right now.”
  • “Maybe I shouldn’t be singing along to Hollywood Undead while running past a park full of children.”
  • “Did I put on moister wicking socks? Because these socks don’t feel like they’re doing any moister wicking.”
  • “Fartlek fartlek fartlek fartlek….” (all sung to myself in a weird voice)
  • “Running fucking sucks. Why did I get myself into this?”
  • “I wonder if people around here recognize me as the crazy person who’s always out running. I sure hope so.”

There’s a lot more where these came from so I’m thinking this is going to become a series here on therunningrebel.com. πŸ™‚ I’ll probably try to write a post like this around the end of every month, so keep any eye out for that!

I sure hope you enjoyed these weird, random thoughts of mine!! What are some things you’ve thought to yourself while running? I wanna know!!

~Ashley