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An Update

It’s race week!!!

On Saturday my dad and I will be running the Longview Half in Grandview, Mo and then in Sunday we’ll be tackling the Gobbler Grind Half in Overland Park, KS!!

I am completely and overwhelming underprepared…πŸ˜‚

For the past 6 weeks I was hardly able to do any running let alone any actual training. My new job was absolutely beating the hell out of me and I got to the point where I wasn’t healing or recovering at all. My body was bruised and beaten down and every week just seemed to add more fatigue on top of it all. I was really hoping that I would end up adjusting to it all, but things just got progressively worse and worse and never really improved.

Cuts, scrapes, and bruises that just never seemed to go away.

At this point my wrist and hands have been red, swollen, and painful for weeks now. My hands and wrists are small, delicate, and have always been the weakest point of my body. And having to rip apart cat litter boxes ever 15 minutes just completely did them in. They even got to the point that they would throb with every step that I take when I’m running.

Instead of adjusting to the work the fatigue just seemed to pile up week after week. I literally couldn’t function when I would get home from my 12 hour shifts and on my days off I could barely get anything done. I tried to keep up with running, but mostly I just ended up cutting every run super short. Oh and my hair started falling out in clumps, so that’s cool.

Plus all of the dust in that place was just killing my asthmatic lungs. Your cat litter might say that it’s “low dust” but I can assure you that it’s not… Oh and we can’t forget this gem!

I know I probably sound like a whiny, ungrateful bitch right now but this was my reality for the past 6 weeks.

But last night I broke down and I quit my job at the cat litter factory. I just couldn’t do it anymore. I feel like I had to do it for my own physical and mental well being.

Honestly I don’t like having to admit that o couldn’t handle it. I’m not proud of how badly this job beat me down. I really did want it to work out. It was the best paying job that o could ever get, being uneducated and unskilled as I am. But the reality is that I just couldn’t handle it.

Plus on top of all of the physical stuff the blatant sexism and…I’m not sure what to call the “compliments” were really starting to get to me. I think it’s a little obvious that it’s mostly men who work jobs like this so it was mostly men that I worked with. The amount of times I got called a “pretty girl” was irritating, but what really pissed me off we’re comments like “you can’t stand around and look pretty all day when you work here” and “you can’t be pretty AND run the line at the same time”. Those were real, actual things that were said to me! They were meant to be jokes, I guess, but they sure didn’t feel that way. Ugh.

And yesterday a woman who works there who kind of took me under her wing told me the best thing I could do was keep my head down, do my job, and be careful what I say and who I say it to because the men there really do treat women differently. I really do appreciate her looking out for me, but hearing that was just a huge bummer on top of everything else…

So there you have it. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ I’m still looking for another job and hopefully I’ll end up working again soon, but at this point I’m just glad that I never have to step foot in that place again.

Anyway, back to race week stuff!!

So I’m hoping that I can get enough rest and recover enough that these half marathons don’t go too poorly. Although at this point I’ve accepted that they’re going to be very painful and we’re definitely going to be the party in the back for both half’s. Hahaha but at least my dad will be right there with me for them both, so I won’t be suffering alone! He’s been going through some shit as well and he hasn’t done any training either. πŸ˜‚ Oh well, we always have a lot of fun together, no matter what we’re doing. Like running a 10k in the mountains that I also was not prepared for. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

Aaand to top it all off, I’m a little bit ill. Cool! πŸ™ƒ But I don’t feel as bad as I usually do when I’m sick so I’m hoping that continues to be the case! Or that I just start feeling better by this weekend! I’ve been chugging water with Nuun immunity tablets in it though and I like to think that’s helping! Even if it is just a placebo effect (which I don’t think it is. At least not entirely). My shitty immune system needs all of the help it can get, so hopefully between the Nuun, the no longer working at the cat litter factory, and all of the rest I plan on doing over the next few days help me get over this thing quickly!

Anyway, today I’ve been resting and relaxing and doing some light house work. Just trying to slowly catch up on all of the things that have fallen to the wayside over the past 6 weeks, ya dig? It was a good day, but my favorite part was not having to wake up at 4 am and getting to sleep in until 8, and then waking up to Finn laying on my feet and Dean cuddled up to my back. I think the dogs have missed me as much as I’ve missed spending time with them. They’re the best.

Alrighty, that’s all for today! But I can promise you I’ll be keeping this blog more up to date now that I’m not killing my self slowly by working at the Clorox plant anymore.

I hope everyone had a great Halloween and has a fantastic November!!

~Ashley

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My Break From Being A Runner

Just in case anyone wanted to know how my Sunday morning went; I tried to brew coffee without the coffee. πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ

Honestly, that pretty much sums up my week. I ran a grand total of one time this week and that was a whopping two miles. Mostly because I’ve been sick and for a while there anytime I attempted to do anything physically active that seemed to make it worse. So on Thursday after my one very short run this week I decided that I was done for this week and I was going to take a break from being s runner. If that makes any sense? Hahaha it made sense to me anyway.

(Which is why there is no weekly recap this week. I really don’t have much to recap. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ)

So on Friday Luke and o did our usual every-other-Friday routine. He played 18 holes of golf in the morning and I road along with him in the golf cart (which was the fastest cart on this side of the Mississippi! πŸ˜‰). Then we went grocery shopping, ran some errands, and other random boring adult stuff, then we went to a second golf course. πŸ˜‚

The second course we went to is a walking course, which is a lot less fun after riding around in the fastest cart on this side of the Mississippi all morning, and I actually played at this one! We only did 9 holes though. I was hoping the physical activity would help clear out my nose and chest and make me feel a little better, but honestly I ended up feeling worse by the time we were done. But I did get a SpongeBob ball that day, so obviously that made things a little better. πŸ˜‰

At this point I was just so done. I was tired of being sick, tired of not running. But also tired of always being worried about running and training for races and trying to improve my fitness and all of that fun stuff. Stressed about the job search and kinda bummed about the fact that I’m probably going to end up working at the Clorox plant here in town. Which in and of itself isn’t bad. But the having to work 12 hour shifts overnight is going to be a tough transition for me.

So I did something that I rarely ever do anymore. I got two bottles of wine and drank on on Friday night and the other last night. That’s two evenings in a row that I spent pleasantly buzzed on wine stuffing my face with whatever I wanted and just completely ignoring all of the things that have been causing me stress lately. It was kind of nice, actually.

There was definitely wine in that mug. πŸŽƒπŸ˜‚

Honestly I couldn’t tell you the last time I drank two nights in a row. I don’t drink very often anymore and especially not a couple of nights in a row like that. Mostly because I just don’t feel great afterwards and that makes running hard. That or I just don’t run after a night of drinking. But like I said before, I was taking a break from being a runner. πŸ˜‰

So I spent my weekend attempting to read the last book in Stephen King’s The Dark Tower series. I say attempting because finishing a series is always hard. Especially when you’ve already read it many many times and you know stuff that’s about to happen and how it’s ends. I kind of hate how this series ends. Mostly because it’s not the ending I wanted. πŸ˜‚ The problem is the ending makes so much sense and it’s kind of perfect. So I guess that’s what makes it so good. I’m not ready for it to end for the 19th (anyone see what I did there πŸ˜‰) time yet so I’ve been slowly making su way through it. πŸ˜‚

In my procrastination of finishing this book series I’ve fallen waaay into a Weezer and Fall Out Boy rabbit hole. Two bands I haven’t really exploded much since high school. Except I do often get nostalgic and listen to their songs that I liked from way back when, but now I’ve been listening to their “new to me” stuff. Hahaha ever since the Hella Mega tour with Weezer, Fall Out Boy, and Green Day was announced all I’ve been listening to has been those three bands. πŸ˜‚

Ah man, I’d love too see a show on the Hella Mega tour, but at this point it’s looking like the closest they’re actually coming to me is Chicago which is like 8 and a half hours away from me. Under other circumstances and if I had the money I’d be willing to travel farther than that to see show on this tour, but I kinda hate Chicago (been there once and I never want to go back πŸ˜‚) and don’t really want to go there. Plus it’s at Wrigley Field and as a person from the St. Louis area and therefore and obligated Cardinals fan, I feel like I’m not allowed to get there unless it’s to see the Cards play against the Cubs. πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‚ (That is a joke my friends! For real though I just wouldn’t want to travel to Chicago. πŸ˜‰)

So for now I guess I’m just going to have to be content with YouTube videos and people live streaming shows on Instagram. Hahaha that’s always better than nothing!

Anyway, back to what I was originally talking about, my weekend was spent putting more time and energy into the other things that I love and not worrying about the fact that I only ran two miles this week, or that in 8 weeks I’m running two half marathons in two days (yikes!), and how poorly I feel like this whole training cycle has gone so far. I took a break from all of that and I think it was much needed!!

Today I focused on eating better and re-hydrating. I definitely needed to do that! But for the most part I spent my day listening to the And That’s Why We Drink podcast and cleaning, doing chores around the house, and just kinda reveling in the last day I’m giving myself to not be a runner. Tomorrow I’ll go back to being a runner and attempting to salvage my training somehow (and worrying about getting a job and all of that fun stuff) but not today. Today was a chill, kick back and relax while occasionally cleaning stuff kinda day. A good way to wrap up my little break from everything, I think. 😊

Happy Sunday, everyone!

~Ashley

Bummer…

Remember the real good day I had two weeks ago? Well yesterday was kinda the opposite of that. πŸ˜‚

First and foremost I got sick. Yuck.

I kinda saw that one coming though. Luke was sick over the weekend and every time he gets sick I also end up catching it because my immune system sucks. On Sunday I thought I was going to get lucky but nope, yesterday I woke up feeling not-so-great and it just progressively got worse from there. Fun times man.

A large icee was absolutely necessary yesterday. It made my slightly sore throat feel better.

That afternoon I got a rejection email from Garmin. Honestly I knew that job was a super long shot anyway, but I was hoping to get it. I thought the interview went well and it sounded like a great place to work, but apparently they didn’t think I was a good fit. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ Oh well. Hopefully this just means there’s something better on the horizon!

At least I sure hope it does! If not I’m probably going to end up working at a cat litter factory here in my town. That’s definitely not preferable, but you gotta do what you gotta do. The cat litter factory is better than what I’ve got going on now, which is basically nothing. Sure, I get a little something from blogging but not enough to sustain myself. So I’ve got to start bringing in an actual income somehow.

And running lately has just been…not great. I feel like my failed attempt at a long run last weekend was due to the fact that I was coming down with a pretty gnarly cold (seriously, it’s been bad for both Luke and I). But the rest of last week just didn’t go well either. And same fit the week before that. And the week before that. Yuck.

I feel like I’m just not recovering properly. I really need to get my diet in check (I feel like I’ve been eating like shit for a while now as well). I definitely need to eat more protein. Probably in the form of meat. I know I’ve felt better and even recovered better when I had more meat in my diet but bleh. I’m just not big into meat. I’m not a vegetarian or anything (although I do have plenty of days where I do actually eat what would be considered a vegetarian diet), I’d just rather eat other things. But that’s definitely something I’m going to have to work on. I feel like if I can get my diet on track I’ll be able to get back on track with running.

But I do have to say, this cold sure isn’t helping with that! Hopefully I’ll get over it soon though. I’ve already missed out on too much running this training cycle and now I’m missing out on more because Monday and today I just haven’t felt well enough to run. My sinuses and ears are pretty clogged and that’s been making me dizzy. To me, that is a pretty definitive sign that I need to be resting and not running right now.

Anyway, I’ve thrown myself enough of a pity party. But buckle up folks because I’m taking off my pity party hat and putting on my mega fan-girl hat!

GREEN DAY IS DOING THINGS!!!!!!!!

I’ve been in hardcore fan-girl mode ever since rumors of a new album started floating around. And that happened a while ago actually.

Then more rumors started about a tour with Weezer and Fall Out Boy (still not sure how I feel about that). That was basically confirmed Sunday night via an instagram post on the tour’s instagram account. Plus hints at something more to come on September 10th (today!!).

People were speculating that a new single was going to be released. Which it was!! Along with the albums release date. Plus the Hella Mega tour was officially announced and tonight Green Day, Weezer, and Fall Out Boy will be playing at the Whisky a Go Go tonight.

Whew! So there’s been a lot going on in the Green Day fandom today! πŸ˜‚

I gotta say, I’m still torn about the new album cover. But I aside from the weird vocals I think the new single is kick ass! So far I’m loving it and all of the Green Day hype that’s been happening today! So honestly all of that has made me feel a lot better. πŸ˜‚

Today has been a wild ride emotionally. πŸ˜‚ Things could definitely be better, but right now everything is Green Day and nothing hurts. Well, except for my throat, chest, and lungs from coughing, but you get what I mean. πŸ˜‰

Here’s hoping all of this means there are better things on the horizon!

But that’s all for now!!

Your favorite Green Day fan-girl,

~Ashley

Ps;

I really hate doing this but anyone wanna help a girl out and “buy me a coffee“. I know I haven’t exactly been blogging much but I was way back when I started my ko-fi account, which is why I made it. I just thought it would be a good way to keep the blog going (domain fees and keeping a blog monetized is no joke!) but right now we are in a tight spot, especially after Lily’s emergency surgery (hence my search for a “real” job”) and could use a little help if anyone is willing! I promise I’m really going to get back into blogging and really earn any of those “coffees”!

So that being said, is there anything in particular anyone wants to read more about here on this blog? Or anything you want to read less of?? I’d love to hear any suggestions anyone might have!

And with that I’m officially signing off for the day! I’ve got plenty of Green Day stuff to keep up with tonight. πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰

August 27th, 2019

Today was a good day!!!

First and foremost, I started off my day by listening to my Halloween playlist! Well, my Halloween playlist in progress, anyway. After my debacle with iTunes a few months ago all of my old playlists are gone along with a bunch of my music, so I’ve been using Spotify quite a bit. And my Halloween playlist on there isn’t quite as good as my old one on iTunes, but it’s getting there. 😁

Anyway, I don’t care if it’s only August 27th it’s never too early to start getting spooky. πŸŽƒπŸ’€πŸ–€

Then while on my run I found $14 in a ditch! I find paper money when I run every once in a while and I always stop to pick it up, but $14 is the most I’ve found at one time!

Oh and my run did go pretty well today too. So that’s good.

After my run I submitted a resume and a copy of my ID to a job recruiter that my brother-in-law hooked me up with. He’s been helping me to *hopefully* get a job at the Clorox plant that he works with here in town.

But a few days ago I had also applied to a job at Garmin’s world headquarters that I just happened to see on a job board. I honestly didn’t think anything would actually come of it but then as I was submitting my resume to the other guy Garmin’s HR called me! And after answering a few questions I was able to set up an interview for September 3rd!! 😱

Holy cow you guys! I legitimately didn’t think that was going to go anywhere but now I have an interview with them!! I guess that just goes to show that it never hurts to just go for song and see what happens!

And all of that happened before 11 am! πŸ˜‚ After that my day was pretty uneventful, but after the great morning I had I’ll take it!!

I hope everyone else has had a fantastic Tuesday as well!

Until next time,

~Ashley

Hello Again, Illinois!

Hello my friends!

So, I didn’t write a weekly recap for this week because on Wednesday I tripped and fell (again πŸ™„) while running and twisted my ankle. It’s been pretty sore since then so I haven’t run on it since. Bummer. And definitely not the way I wanted to kick off week one of half marathon training. But at least I didn’t skin my knees as badly this time. 🀣

Oh man, honestly I’m beginning to think my newer pair of running shoes is the problem. I’ve NEVER fallen like this whole running before and now I’ve done it twice within the last several weeks. The only difference is the shoes. I already prefer minimalist shoes so I usually run in Nike Free’s, but I also like to rotate in a different model of Nike’s just to switch things up. But apparently these shoes are just too much for me. I can’t feel the ground beneath my feet like I’d like to and I’m beginning to think that’s the problem here. πŸ€”

So yeah. Hurt my ankle. Haven’t been able to run since Wednesday. Freaking great. πŸ™„πŸ˜‘

In better news, yesterday Luke and I drove to Illinois to visit with family! This is our last big thing we’re doing for the summer and after this everything should be calming down around here. And hopefully my ankle will start to feel better so that I can really start digging into half marathon training!

Anyway, we made it to Illinois just fine and at around 4:30 that afternoon! We have all 4 dogs with us so our first stop was to Luke’s dads so we could say hi and then drop off Dean and Whiskey there. Then we went to my grandma’s to drop off Lily and Finn. We separated them because 4 border collies all in the same house that does not belong to them is a bad idea. So it’s better to split them up like this.

After the dogs were settled in we drove back to Luke’s dad’s house because him, his wife, and youngest son were going to this BBQ festival thing and they wanted Luke and I to go with them.

It was definitely an interesting event. One whole street was closed down and lined with bbq vendors. The food was pretty good. But really all I ate was part of a giant turkey leg. I love me a good turkey leg. πŸ¦ƒπŸ˜‚

Mostly though I was excited about the live music! They had a pretty decent 80’s cover band called “Jonny Rock-ITT” playing and I thought that was fun! Live music is basically my favorite thing!! They played for something like an hour and a half to 2 hours. Basically the whole time we were there. We got to listen to/watch them while we walked around and ate. They actually started their set a few minutes after we got there and finished a few minutes before we left, so I was pretty stoked that we were there for the entirety of the live music! 😊

Once we were done there Luke brought me back to my grandma’s so I could hang out with her, my uncle, and Lily and Finn for the night, and he went back to his dad’s so he could spend time with him, his step mom, his youngest brother, and Dean and Whiskey.

Finn thinks he needs to protect me from my Uncle’s dog. Poor Luther is really a good boy. Finn’s just an asshole. πŸ˜‚

Today Luke, his dad, his step mom, and I went to a local distillery for a tasting and tour. I’m not much into hard liquor, but it was still really fun! Plus they had some flavored vodka and whiskey that was pretty good! The photo below of of a Lemon fizz and it was DELICIOUS! πŸ˜‹

So first we got to try 6 of their vodka’s and whiskeys and then we learned how it’s made. So they grow their own corn and use locally peaches and apples to flavor their peach and apple vodkas which I think is cool! Hahaha and we got to keep our tasing cups afterwards which was cool.

So Luke and his dad each bought a bottle of the lemon drop whiskey which was what was in the Lemon Fizz, so apparently we’re going to be drinking that tonight. πŸ˜‚ But before that fun ensues we’re going out to eat at a Mexican restaurant for dinner.

So that’s what’s up next on our agenda while we’re here. I’m not sure what else will be going down, but we’re going to be here until Wednesday, so I’m sure we’ll be doing something else before then.

But that’s all for now!

Happy Sunday,

~ Ashley

New PR, Baby!!

I ran 8 freaking miles on the treadmill today! That’s the farthest I’ve ever gone on a treadmill!!! Hahaha that totally counts as a PR, right?? πŸ˜‰

Honestly though I didn’t actually plan on running 8 miles on the treadmill today, although I did plan to do my run inside. It’s heating up here in Kansas! It was hot and sunny today and I didn’t want to deal with that! Especially since I stayed up late last night, so I really didn’t want to have to wake up super early. And that, my friends, is why having a treadmill is nice! I was able to sleep in and run farther that I would have if I would have run outside. Probably.

Anyway, like I said, this wasn’t planned at all! Originally I was aiming for 4-5 miles for today. Being on the treadmill for extended periods of time is kind of a mind fuck for me. After about 3 miles I have to start playing some weird mind games with myself. Especially since for whatever reason, I can’t run as fast as I normally would be able to on the treadmill. It completely messes with my form and I basically slow down to a crawl, and I’m already a slow runner to begin with! So. Weird mental games have to happen. But I mean, whatever works, right? πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ˜‚

Luckily for me though I only had to do that a little bit near the end. Broadway Idiot was able to hold my attention and keep my mind from melting from boredom for the most part.

After I had hit about 5 miles I decided why not aim for 6? Then not even half way into my 6th mile I thought to myself “why not aim for 8? That’s only 2 more miles. And I’ve definitely got two more miles in me.” Hahaha yeah, that’s a nice little mind trick. πŸ˜‰ But it worked so I’ll take it!!

Also, having a very cute spectator definitely helped. Lily hung out with me while I got this one done. πŸΆπŸ’œ

So, 8 miles done and dusted! Which means my long run for the week is actually done, because 8 was the plan for this weeks long run. Not gonna lie, that’s kind of a nice feeling.

I feel like everything actually ended up working out so well because I ate pizza for dinner last night and for breakfast this morning, and I swear every time I do a run fueled on pizza it ends up being a really good one! Or ya know, at least decent. I wouldn’t call running on the treadmill “really good” because I always feel like I’m going to die if boredom, but at least my body felt good. πŸ˜‚ Hahaha anyway, apparently pizza is the perfect ratio of carbs and fat for me. It’s never not worked. So basically what I’m saying is I should eat more pizza. πŸ•πŸ˜‹πŸ˜‰

After this run I was exhausted! I think know it was more mental than physical. Don’t get me wrong, I still felt like I ran 8 miles (because I did πŸ˜‰) but man, being on the treadmill always feels harder that actually running outside. Which is kinda funny, because running on the treadmill is supposed to be easier than running outside. But again, I think it’s just a mental thing.

Anyway, the rest of my day was kinda chill. I spent a good portion of my afternoon reading, actually. I’ve been re-reading Stephen Kong’s Dark Tower series for like, the 5th or 6th time, and I always forget how much I get pulled into these books! I mean, Stephen Kong’s work always really draws me in. I’ve been a huge fan of his since I was a lowly 7th grader in desperate need of something more challenging that what we were reading in school. Hahaha Stephen Kings The Stand was obviously the right choice for a 13 year old. πŸ˜‰

But ever since then I’ve absolutely devoured his books, particularly the Dark Tower series. It’s just So. Good! I can’t recommend it’s enough!! it’s definitely my favorite book series ever!

After spending several hours with Roland and his Ka-tet I finally got my butt in gear and got a bunch of stuff done around the house. Nothing as exciting as running 8 miles on the treadmill though and I feel like that’s kinda saying something. πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‚

Anyway, I just wanted to share my little achievement with you today! I don’t like running on the treadmill so I’m kinda weirdly proud of myself right now.

But that’s all for now!

Until next time,

~Ashley πŸ‘½

May Miles and Goal Check In

🎢Spring is almost over and the summer’s come and the days are gettin’ long🎢

Nitty Gritty Dirt Band, anyone? 🎣

The days are certainly gettin’ long here in Kansas! The sun sets around 8:30 pm this time of year, but full dark doesn’t really happen until around 9. Summer is definitely almost here! Yuck. Summer running is my least favorite. πŸ₯΅ But on the bright side, at least I have a treadmill for days when doing hard workouts outside would be unbearable! πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ˜†

Anyway, May was an interesting month. I got sick, had a 5k race, picked up a new sport, and traveled to Minnesota. Plus all of our usual daily/summer activities like caring for chickens and all of the other animals. Planting and now tending the garden. And yard work of course. It’s a lot to jam into 4 weeks. πŸ˜‚

So needless to say my running mileage has suffered a little bit since April (44.32 miles. Another weird month) and A LOT since March (87.92 miles. A very good month! πŸ™‚). This month’s grand total comes to 39.78 miles.

Hahaha yeah, I’m not too happy about that. But life happened as it sometimes does. There was really nothing I could do about that terrible cold I got. It took me FOREVER to get over that. And I picked family time over running time while we were in Minnesota. A very good choice that I was willing to make. Sometimes you need to make sacrifices in life for running. Other times you need to make sacrifices in running for life. πŸ˜ŠπŸƒπŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ‘πŸ»

The rest of my goals were kind of all over the place as well.

Honestly I’ve been eating like shit pretty much all month. I’ve been journaling off and on, and this definitely wasn’t the best month as far as my step goal goes.

But now for the most part all of the craziness that has been the last few months should be calming down. Now it’s time to buckle down and GET SHIT DONE! I’m ready to spend the next month or so building my mileage back up and then start training for Operation Two Half Marathons In Two Days: Take Two later in July! Bring. It. On!! πŸ’ͺπŸ»πŸƒπŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ€˜πŸ»

Wishing you a very happy June!

~Ashley