This morning I woke up tired, sore, and unmotivated to do pretty much anything. Initially I was super frustrated with myself. I mean, it wasn’t all that long ago when I could do an easy 4 miler like I did yesterday, and wake up feeling refreshed, rejuvenated, and ready to take on the day and tackle another run. But I took a minute to take a step back and really look at what’s going on. I did kind of do a lot yesterday! I braved the elements and did an almost 4 mile run (it was 3.89, but that’s freaking close enough hahaha) with ice under my feet and pretty harsh wind gusts which where sometimes at my back and sometimes at my face. It was slow going (it was more slipping, sliding, walking over really bad patches of ice, and stopping for cars), hard work, and most importantly, a lot of fun!
And then later in the day I did a 30 minute yoga sequence and spend 30 minutes on my stationary bike (and it wasn’t 30 minutes of me just fucking around on the bike like I sometimes do, I was actually putting in some work hahaha! 😉 ). And that was all on top of me being sick last week, and being crazy busy with Christmas stuff the week before that, so no freaking wonder I don’t feel like doing anything today!
Sure maybe at one point I could have done a hard workout after everything I did yesterday. And yes, compared to what some people can do/are currently doing, I did hardly anything yesterday. But comparing myself to other people or to what I could do at another point and time is literally going to get me nowhere. It doesn’t get anyone anywhere.
So, this is where I’m at right now and that’s ok. I’ve got some really big goals I want to accomplish and I’m going to have to work really hard to make them happen. But right now I need to focus on even getting to the point of being able to work towards them. I can’t just jump right back into what I was doing several months ago and think that will work. It won’t. More likely than not I’ll just end up burnt out or hurt, and I’m already super injury prone haha. I need to work back up to where I was and then build from there. And if that means having to skip out on a run here or there to rest, then so be it. For me today, not running is a win. 🙂
I know this post is kinda just one big “note to self” thing. But if you take anything away from it, let it be the fact that it’s ok to be where you’re at right now and to work with that instead of comparing yourself to someone else or to your past self (something that I’m super guilty of), and then trying to do too much, or getting frustrated and giving up on whatever your goal happens to be. You’ve got this. I believe in you. Which is also a good “note to self”. 🙂
I hope you have a fantastic Friday!!