You know how after taking a break from running, whether it be for injury, burnout, loss of motivation, or whatever, and you miss it while you’re not doing it but then once it comes time to start running again and you just don’t want to do it? Yeah that’s where I am right now. Now that I’ve fallen out of my routine I’m finding it very difficult to begin getting back into it.
And honestly I don’t even think starting to get back into a routine is even the hard part. I mean, it sucks that I’ve fallen out of it, but I think after a few days I can be right back into it. The problem is I know how freaking badly running again is going to suck. It’s going to be so freaking hard. Because running is already really hard, but the more you do it the more fun it becomes. At least that’s how it usually goes for me. The first few weeks of coming back after a break, or even just starting for the very first time, is super hard and it hurts in a way that doesn’t feel good (if you’ve been running for a while then you probably know that good hurting feeling. I know I sure do. 😉 and it’s no fun and I’m totally not looking forward to all of that. Ugh but the only way to get back to having fun with running is to actually do it and experience all the suck. I’m just not looking forward to the experience…
Did that paragraph even make any sense? Haha it made sense to me, at least.
Anyway, two days in a row I’ve told myself I was going to hop back onto the running bandwagon and I have not. Honestly I think that’s alright though. If I’m not ready to embrace the suck yet then I’m not going to do it. Doing something I don’t want to do is a really good way to get me to burnout, which is something I definitely don’t want to do right after getting back into it haha. At the end of the day if running isn’t fun then I’m not going to do it.
Eventually I’ll be ready to embrace all of the suck that comes with getting back into running. And probably very soon, because I am very much over this whole not running thing hahaha. But today is not that day, and I’ve officially decided that I’m ok with that. 🙂