I’ve spent waaay too much obsessive over counting calories and losing weight. I’m going on 5 years (off and on, but mostly on) of diligently tracking every single bite that went into my mouth.
I started using myfitnesspal back in 2012 as a way to help me lose weight. It worked really well for a while. I lost around 30 pounds, and in 2013 I was at my lowest weight in my adult life. It was a healthy weight too, I was at 143 pounds (at 5’7 that put me in the “normal” range on the BMI scale, if you put any stock into all that crap like I used to). I pretty much maintained that weight through out 2013 and most of 2014, but then I started to steadily gain weight back. Luckily I never made it back to my highest weight, and at the 158.5 pounds that I’m at now is still in the “normal” range on the BMI scale (again, if you actually put any stock into any of that. I don’t really anymore), so i’m not technically overweight, but I also think it would be good for me to get back down to 140 ish pounds. I definitely felt a lot better and much more confident at that weight.
The problem is, I’ve been trying to get back down to that weight by counting calories and that’s obviously not working anymore. I’ve been stuck around 160-158 pounds for quite some time now, and honestly, I’m just tired of keeping track of all this stuff. Like what’s the point really? Why does it matter how many calories I eat in a day or what the number on the scale is? In the grand scheme of things none of that really matters, so fuck it. This morning I deleted myfitnesspal from my phone and disconnected the account from Garmin Connect, and I didn’t track a single bite of food today. I am officially done with all of this counting and tracking stuff. I’m also done comparing myself now to who I was a few years ago. That’s not doing me any good anyway.
Instead, I’m going to focus on eating super clean again. I’m going to focus on eating foods that are good for my body and every once in a while food that is good for my soul (so you know, treats 🙂 ). And focus on being the healthiest and happiest I can be, instead of how much I’m eating or how much I weigh.